Please don’t love her more than you loved me. I’m supposed to let you go, but once a former “loved one” seems to have found happiness without you, it kills and brings a sudden emptiness. Even if that “loved one” mentally and physically fucked you up.
Thank you so much , as are you💕
I’ve never been okay with my stomach or my arms since like day 1, what if I never feel beautiful about my body?
Fuck my genes.
Goddamit why can’t I be tiny like I used to be, this isn’t fair. Damn you birth control for making me so thin then after I stop them I get all chunky again. No >:/ why can’t I just be naturally tiny. Though I am the smallest in my family and I intend to keep it that way.. I want to be smaller. I want to be as light as I used to be. I want to feel like a feather in the wind again. I hate my stomach. Though my legs still satisfy me somewhat. I really hate my stomach. And oh god my arms??? Why are my genes so bad. Blah blah blah gonna go smoke weed so I stop bitching. Goooodbye.
I see sappy posts and sappy pictures of sappy couples.
And I think of you.
It tears me apart, every muscle in my heart
To know I really can’t stop loving you.
Your bone hard chest, fills my lungs with security and my heart with solidarity
When I lay my head against your saddened heart beat.
For your touch is all I can remember,
Is all I can accept.
And not the times you bruised my innocent skin upon my body
But the times you whispered my name in pure adoration
The times you wrapped your long arms around my broken, disproportionate body
The times you made love to my empty soul,And filled it with flowers, which bloomed in every color.
For I love you by the things I hold greatly in my heart ..
And that will always be the feeling you filled me so greatly with.
Does one let the skin burn from the abuse of another? Or start out fresh with the pray that put them there.
I just want to breath. I want to breath your scent in a million times stronger.
His bone hard chest, the stubble on your face when you couldn’t care less, his long arms to to hold every inch of warmth for me you still have.
But I guess all I’m saying here,
Is that this is making me realize that maybe you are the one
And that my love for you may never die..
That I choke on water, when all I want to do is fly.
Finally I can relax after a long ass day. Went to the chiropractor for my neck cause it’s mother fucking SEIZED ;___; its so awful. I basically can’t turn my neck left all the way without extreme pain that basically strains my neck. Went and got my piercing shoved out of my lip. Bought myself some new black vans for when it gets nicer out, a bra and a garter belt. (And yes my stomach IS covered)
Now I’m stoned at home wearing all my sexy things and I’m trying my best to stay happy and confident.. yeah!
*if you read that yeah! as Flash Gordon and kinda Ezra at the same time you da bomb diggidy* ahahfqllgekfkw