I have to go to fucking work and i just want to sit at home and cry. I’m trying to watch netflix but it’s not working and that’s making me even more upset and just fuck everything :( I hate Kai but I still love him so much and I just want to drown myself in a bucket of fucking bleach. Fuck this life. I need to leave this city :( brb moving to Victoria with Sarah…
I hate my brain, it’s so goddamn fucked up. Everyday I wish for something tragic to happen to me just for a reason to feel this fucked up, or sad/anxious. I hate this fucking life, I think about suicide so much. Yeah all of my friends are about positive thinking and happiness of sorta and good intentions blah blah blah and I just feel like a fucking outcast piece of shit. Sorry that I’m so fucked up and I can’t think normally. I can’t follow that “right path” and be intelligent like you guys are and it makes me hate myself. I don’t feel included in things, I don’t feel truly liked, I don’t feel like this life is worth my time, I still feel so damn disconnected. Yeah you guys can try and convince me to think positive and think in an enlightened way but that’s just not how my brain thinks sometimes. I just want to leave this city and start over where nobody knows me at all. Except maybe Sarah. Life man
everything is sort of weird and sad and i want to sleep next to you
I’m so fucking scared of being alone forever but I know I will be.
Every time I get close to having something with someone they up and leave me a broken mess or I fuck things up by being a clingy little bitch.
I’m so tired of always feeling miserable I just want to feel loved and to be content with life.