im impossible to love



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hi my name is maddie and I'm a sad, disordered teenager.
17 year old anorexic girl who lives in Calgary. I hate myself but I love you.
disclaimer: I do not promote eating disorders, nor self harm.


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    walkingwithcorpses: fill-and-empty: fill-and-empty: getting fatter everyday. i am not aloud to be weighted until the meeting with the doctor. i know how much i weight, i can see it. i’m bigger than ever and it’s really hard for me to stop cutting.im a monster.a big disgusting fat monster.nothing will ever change that.even if i could be skinny, i won’t get rid of this uglyness.i dont want people telling me in pretty, or fat. or ugly. or beautiful.i know what i see and thats what i believe.  okay this is maybe weird.. but im going to talk to/about myself now.. or whatever.i feel like i can, i know that my mood keeps changing every second, but right now i want to try not to cut again.the longest so far was 8 days. let me at least beat that.  <3 
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    walkingwithcorpses: bottlesofwhine: fat arm X1000000000000 baby :( 
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    o-bscurity: i love it omg so creepy and cool
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